Have had an interesting pattern pop up over the last couple of days.
I would find a new source of information and those new-to-me ideas and concepts would throw me into a worry and doubt filled tail spin.
I binged on the new information
It used to happen a lot with health information. I would be feeling pretty sure and confident in how I would be progressing with what I was eating. Then I would read a book or article that often opposed that I was doing with convincing information and testimonials.
I would proceed to binge watch and read all about the new info until I was totally confused and feeling awful as I felt unsure, conflicted and unable to take a step forward due to over analysis. And in the last 2 days, this pattern arose again. This time, not with food info but with spiritual teachings.
As much as I enjoy opening my mind to new ways of seeing or approaching things, I was surprised how much it threw me. Threw me right off my good feeling vibe and down into the muddy waters of now I don’t know WHAT to think. Do. Believe! I felt paralyzed with doubt and fear.
And part of this I recognize as a good thing. It’s helpful to be triggered or to have your awareness expanded or have ingrained beliefs challenged and examined. Well, it’s all good really. All emotions and feelings are valid.Nevertheless, I felt confused and crappy. And I didn’t like it.
I drifted away from my own guidance into confusion and overwhelm
I quickly realized it wasn’t because the information may have been different or new or conflicting, I felt crappy because I deviated from my OWN inner information. My own intuition. My own clarity that comes from feeling what resonates truly and beautifully with me. My soul. My higher self. I drifted from my alignment.
What I was listening to was unhelpful to me. Not because the information wasn’t valid, but because it made me doubt my own knowing.
So I stopped the binge watching and reading. Acknowledged and noticed my lack of clarity and my fear that I was living my life, and therefore that I, was wrong. I let these feelings be. Without pushing them down. And then I asked myself: what do I know. What feels true to ME. What do I feel the resonance of truth with.
I tuned back into my own intuition.
And it reminded me that I believe in love. In unconditional acceptance and love. In the following of joy. In the belief that ultimately I am my own authority as I have my OWN connection to spirit/infinite intelligence.
(Which is ultimately what the teachings I were listening to were pointing to anyway)
So, my message to you today is the same as I give myself (as always. You know I write these post to process my own stuff right? 🙂 )
Take in new info, sure. Be open and willing to examine your beliefs.
But feel free to take or leave what is helpful based on what feels true and right for YOU (including this message.).
Connect with your OWN knowing. You own inner compass.
And I give you full permission to disregard what doesn’t deeply resonate with you.
Giving myself this permission too.
Overeating, binge eating, emotional eating. For almost everyone I talk to and work with, these negative eating patterns are a sign. A symptom. A red flag showing you that something is off in your life.
Eating more than your body needs with accompanying negative emotions such as guilt, overwhelment, loss of control and embarrassment, tells you that there are other areas of your life where you feeling less than positive.
Your food intake is a indication of that.
Ease, pleasure and joy in how you eat and feel about your body.
That can seem like something only others have access to.
A state of being that sounds nice, but is not possible for you.
A goal you don’t ever really feel you can achieve (but that you want it all the same).
But I am here to tell you.
Ease, peace and joy is your NATURAL state.
It is how you would relate to food if it weren’t for the layers of BELIEFS that have been created from various external sources; culture, media, history, family, society, schooling and so on.
It is who you were before you took on the patterns of thought the outside world presented to you.
Its who you ARE.
Even if you aren’t allowing that side of you to shine through.
You, the happy, healthy, joyous eater is there inside you.
It is who you are at your core.
And for that reason, learning to embody that person, to BE who you really are, is not only possible but is what your soul is calling you to.
I know that can be hard to believe.
But if any of this make sense to you, its because you can FEEL the truth of it.
It is why you want to change your eating.
It is why you want to feel better.
It is the reason you are reading this now.
Because deep down you KNOW you are meant to feel good. You are meant to feel radiant well-being. You are meant to be who you really are.
Your body is not broken.
You are not damaged or bad for being where you are.
You are merely thinking thoughts (and a belief is just a thought you think over and over) that lead to actions and feelings which cloud the healthy, happy, ease-full relationship with food and yourself that you desire.
And I am here to guide you in reconnecting you with the good feeling way of eating, and living, that is your inherent state.
To reacquaint you with your intrinsic nature.
That joyful, pleasurable way of being that is available to you.
That is always there for you.
That IS you.
As a teacher of Intuitive Eating, I am a big proponent of encouraging you to eat most of the time in accordance with your hunger.
And sure, that will most likely help your body return to it’s natural weight
And of course, it is better for your health because you are following your body’s signals and needs.
But the real reason I encourage you to eat when you are hungry, is because it is the MOST PLEASURABLE way to eat.
Hunger is the best seasoning- Ken Follett
Food tastes better. Eating is more enjoyable. The food you choose is more satisfying.
Eating when you are hungry brings the most JOY.
And why would joy be a factor in how and what you eat?
Because the whole reason you want ANYTHING in life, is in order to feel good.
Because joy is the reason you are here.
Because when you are in a vibration of savoring and delight, you attract more into your life for you to savor and delight in.
Because when you are filled up on pleasure, it is EASY to eat in accordance with your body’s needs. It is EASY to fuel your wonderful body with nourishing foods. Its EASY for you to have a normal, healthy, peaceful, enjoyable relationship with food and yourself.
Because you have to eat everyday for the rest of your life, so why not make it a wonderful part of your existence?
Joy is the key. Seeking out and prioritizing PLEASURE produces endless benefits to your health, your body and your life as a whole.
So sure, you can eat when you are hungry for your health or your waistline.
But eating a food you LOVE, when your body is desiring it, all while taking the time and focus to revel in the deliciousness and appreciate your meal,
eating for the joy, eating for the pleasure
THAT is what is most fulfilling.
THAT is what is going to fill you up.
THAT is what really hungry for.
It’s not just about what goal you desire to achieve,
but what process you desire to achieve that goal.
Take a goal of wanting to have a healthier diet and a good feeling body.
You could… (more…)
What’s normal and what’s normalized are two very different things.
What has become normalized:
Deciding to quit sugar and then discussing with friends how bad you have been this weekend because you ate WAY more than you ‘should’ have. Obsessing and worrying about when and what to eat. Never knowing what is the right choice. Being ashamed of parts of your body. Having to ‘work off’ something you have eaten. Failing this diet and that diet. Falling off the wagon. Having to HAUL yourself back onto the wagon. Guilt. Embarrassment. Self-deprecation.
Just because something is common, doesn’t make it normal
What IS normal?
Finding it easy to choose the foods that you love and that help your body to thrive. Having vibrant health and radiant joy. Moving your body for pleasure, energy and enjoyment. Eating in accordance with the signals from your wise, wonderful body. Savoring and relishing what you eat. Having a food relationship that is nourishing and ease-full. Not having to worry or feel bad about when, how and what you ingest. Making choices that love and support your most vibrant self.
and that CAN be your normal.
Because underneath what has become normalized,
is the healthy, happy, intuitive eater and person you really are.
Hannah May x