Have had an interesting pattern pop up over the last couple of days.
I would find a new source of information and those new-to-me ideas and concepts would throw me into a worry and doubt filled tail spin.
I binged on the new information
It used to happen a lot with health information. I would be feeling pretty sure and confident in how I would be progressing with what I was eating. Then I would read a book or article that often opposed that I was doing with convincing information and testimonials.
I would proceed to binge watch and read all about the new info until I was totally confused and feeling awful as I felt unsure, conflicted and unable to take a step forward due to over analysis. And in the last 2 days, this pattern arose again. This time, not with food info but with spiritual teachings.
As much as I enjoy opening my mind to new ways of seeing or approaching things, I was surprised how much it threw me. Threw me right off my good feeling vibe and down into the muddy waters of now I don’t know WHAT to think. Do. Believe! I felt paralyzed with doubt and fear.
And part of this I recognize as a good thing. It’s helpful to be triggered or to have your awareness expanded or have ingrained beliefs challenged and examined. Well, it’s all good really. All emotions and feelings are valid.Nevertheless, I felt confused and crappy. And I didn’t like it.
I drifted away from my own guidance into confusion and overwhelm
I quickly realized it wasn’t because the information may have been different or new or conflicting, I felt crappy because I deviated from my OWN inner information. My own intuition. My own clarity that comes from feeling what resonates truly and beautifully with me. My soul. My higher self. I drifted from my alignment.
What I was listening to was unhelpful to me. Not because the information wasn’t valid, but because it made me doubt my own knowing.
So I stopped the binge watching and reading. Acknowledged and noticed my lack of clarity and my fear that I was living my life, and therefore that I, was wrong. I let these feelings be. Without pushing them down. And then I asked myself: what do I know. What feels true to ME. What do I feel the resonance of truth with.
I tuned back into my own intuition.
And it reminded me that I believe in love. In unconditional acceptance and love. In the following of joy. In the belief that ultimately I am my own authority as I have my OWN connection to spirit/infinite intelligence.
(Which is ultimately what the teachings I were listening to were pointing to anyway)
So, my message to you today is the same as I give myself (as always. You know I write these post to process my own stuff right? 🙂 )
Take in new info, sure. Be open and willing to examine your beliefs.
But feel free to take or leave what is helpful based on what feels true and right for YOU (including this message.).
Connect with your OWN knowing. You own inner compass.
And I give you full permission to disregard what doesn’t deeply resonate with you.
Giving myself this permission too.